Options...oh, the options.

I am crunching some numbers [monetarily, and in relation to my GPA]...and i am seeing a few options for my future.


1. hope to god i don't fail purdue, and go on with the lease i have signed for next year
2.fail purdue, but keep the lease and go to ivy tech in lafayette.
3. find a subleaser for me, and go to PNC next year.


With my incredibly hard classes, I am taking the less optimistic approach and trying to prepare for the worst. Since there is a slight probability that i will be dropped, I will either have to enroll at Ivytech in Lafayette, or sublease and go to PNC for at least a year...



oh, the choices...

fuck.my.life.

I can't sleep.

I have come to realize that my greatest fear, over anything else, is that i will fail out of school.
With failing school, comes...
disappointing friends/family
have a nowhere job
being up to my fucking cock in debt
and being a failure at life in general.


it has hit me very hard, today...that if i don't change my ways, i WILL fail out.
and that CAN'T happen.



here's to salvaging my education.